The absurd notion of one

New Beginnings

It's been a while since I posted but I'm still here.
After the glimpse of my true nature and the subsequent return to separation I realise I had become intensely depressed. I was desperate to get back the feeling of being everything I perceived, to the extent of not caring about anything else.
My ego had kicked in again and proclaimed to all who would listen that I was now Enlightened, although I was behaving anything but that.
Then it was like the World said to me "Ok you think your enlightened, take this."
The woman I had partnered and loved for nearly eight years declared her love for another and left. Well I didn't really know what attachment was until that moment, deep, intense suffering followed which I could easily describe as Hell.
My instant reaction was to blame my search for Enlightenment as the catalyst for her leaving me and renounce all spiritual practice, but as the dust settled I realised I was not being true to myself, I knew deep within that this had to happen and in fact I had made it happen for my own spiritual growth.
To avoid the suffering I entered the moment, it was my refuge, in the moment the past and future vanished and with them the suffering.
To be in the moment is like riding a bicycle, the more you do it the easier and more natural it becomes, fears for the future vanish and are replaced by an excitement Now, life is more real without the abstraction of thought processes covering your actual reality and although it is not the state of seeing all things as yourself I had experienced previously, it didn't have to be because life and me were now inseparable!

Through suffering as humans we experience being, I had witnessed this first hand and a question arose in my mind, is this the evolution of mankind, from a consciousness run by mind to a consciousness detached for the most part from mind. A simple leap which engages the flow of life without fighting it, a tree still grows perfectly without using a mind.
What with the credit crunch, wars, disasters, global warming etc etc, is the world causing human suffering for one reason, to wake us from the dream of mind to real life, that of spirit?
The old way seems to be putting up a fight but the harder we're pushed by suffering the more of us awaken to the one true life, then suffering ends, this is not an instant end to suffering more of a gradual shift as we learn to stay focused Now.

Then I thought about 2012 and the end of the long count in the mayan calendar, I had heared it refered to as the end of time! Sounds frightening at first but when in the moment or Now there is no time only Now. Is this gradual shift taking place, gaining momentum over the next three years to a time where there is no time only Now, the jump of human consciousness, will it be like the 100 monkey syndrome ?

Nothing needs to change just our perspective, our level of consciousness but things will change until that is met I feel.

The best thing is that none of this will even concern you when your focused in the moment so save yourself some suffering and loose some thought processes but if you need suffering that's what you'll probably get.

Bless you all

Peter Brown Satsang - Seeking

Stillness Speaks- Teachings in truth

Stillness Speaks

Francis Lucille: Am I A Separate Consciousness?

Bernie Prior - Conscious Human Evolution

Why Enlightenment is important to humanity

Eckhart Tolle Tv

The current economy




Personal Responsibility





An Evening with Eckhart Tolle

David Icke interviewed by Project Camelot

2012 - The Odyssey

Dr David Hawkins - Realizing the Root of Consciousness, ... (Part 1 of 3)

Part 2

Part 3

Dr Hawkins home page

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Leap - The Movie

Leap! is a film that compels you to consider this ageless theory that “The world is an illusion“. This idea may challenge your current beliefs and ideals. but then again Einstein did say “Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.”Leap! explores ancient and modern philosophies and philosophers who support the illusion theory. To Leap! beyond the illusion is to let go and live from inspiration….To Leap! beyond the constraints of your current perceived reality and what you think you know…. The purpose of Leap! is to invite each of us to live beyond the illusion. This movie is not about denying our physical experience. Ultimately it is about Leaping beyond limitations and restrictions which this illusion appears to impose.


More Leap clips here

David Icke interviewed on One radio Network

David Icke talks to Patrick Timpone about the nature of reality. link here

Depression-Gateway to Enlightenment

Many spiritual searchers have only seen their true nature after a bout of serious depression.
Eckhart Tolle and Jeff Foster are two teachers that spring to mind. I myself had a short but strong bout just before I awakened, it seems the depression is in the ego and can help subdue the ego in order for your true nature to shine through.
It seems these days if you feel depressed you run to the doctors for some anti-depressants to paint over your depression.
Maybe the depression spreading across the world is part of the awakening process, stop taking the pills and engage in the moment because after awakening I guarantee you will no longer need any pills, if you start feeling depression coming on again you are not conscious and that is enough to bring you back to being conscious.

ConnectIng .the .dots.FoR. D.a.vi.d Ic.ke...

I really like David Icke, he has done more than any man I know to wake people up to the secret Government, NWO, he has also spread the word about the true nature of reality during his videos, talks and in his books.
I synchronistically met him in the early 1990's, which I've talked about in a much earlier post and he was the one who really got my interest going into trying to work out the hidden truths of The World.
To me if I had to pick a champion, a world hero it would be him for going through so much ridicule and sh1t and coming out of the other side intact, when he could have turned his back on his true feelings and kept his job and relatively secure and happy lifestyle.

David named one of his books in 2005 "Infinite love is the only truth, everything else is illusion"
Which is the ultimate truth, infinite love is The One, The singularity, The Totality, The Source, Consciousness, Brahman etc, etc.

Taking this into account-
Excerpt from The Secret of the matrix. 2003




He seems very much on the ball during this talk.

More recently though he seems to be concentrating on all the negative aspects of the manifest world, global fascist state, rfid micro-chipping of people, population control etc, etc.

Would it not be better to focus on connection to oneness, enlightenment because it seems from my current perspective that all the attention he is giving to the negative aspects he is in fact fueling that potential manifest reality and so are the others who are listening to him.
He hits the nail on the head in 2003 and then carries on regardless, still operating at the same level of consciousness as the people he is trying to stop.

I can understand the reaction though, people engrossed in fighting the NWO, like I was once, think that by surrendering to the manifest world and becoming their true nature is what the NWO want because it shows no physical- manifest resistance to them, they see it as passive submission and from their limited perspective is doomed to failure.
Paradoxically though surrendering is the only way to winning, surrender and the perceived enemy will fall away also.
Like David says "They are all illusions".
Our separateness is an illusion, we are all one.

David Icke was right and he has woken up many, me included but a time has to come to drop the negativity, there is enough of that being produced by the media already on behalf of TPTB.

He even says in the video except,
"you can say, hey I love you George Bush, I love you Tony Blair"

Well David my old mate it's time to start spreading some love fella because like you said at Brixton in 2003 "what you resist persists."

Religious, But Not Spiritual? (with Father Thomas Keating)

The Catholic theologian Karl Rahner famously said "the Christian of tomorrow will be a mystic, or not a Christian at all." Few people have impacted Christianity in this regard as has Fr. Thomas Keating. A Cistercian monk from St. Benedict's Monastery in Snowmass, Colorado, Fr. Thomas has spent a lifetime in deep Christian practice, and in sharing the fruits of this contemplation with countless others.

The Spirituality of Tomorrow

Our Awakening is the Greatest Contribution To Humanity

I just had to post this audio excerpt from Adyashanti's End of Your World cd, this is why we are waking ourselves up, this is why fighting the New World Order is pointless and doing more damage than good, it's fueling them, giving them energy to get bigger and stronger in the manifest world.

If you really want to do something worthwhile, that's really going to help Humanity/Consciousness then just wake up to your true nature.

The NWO will not be defeated using the same consciousness that created them, if you think by protesting, waking people up to them, even bearing arms against them will change anything apart from making things worse you are deceived.

This is the only way you can have a positive effect on our planet, this is the start of The Golden Age of Mankind, NOW WAKE UP to it.

Surrender Or Suffer - Adyashanti

Welcome To Reality - Adyashanti

Adyashanti is really good to listen to after you have had your first enlightenment experience, seeing your true nature. I would recommend The End Of Your World CD Disc set.
Adyashanti Web page here

Deepak Chopra and Andrew Cohen dialogue

"On The Way"

Zen Sermon by Ma-tsu (709-788)

The Patriarch said to the assembly, “All of you should believe that your mind is Buddha, that this mind is identical with Buddha. The great master Bodhidharma came from India to China, and transmitted the One Mind teaching of Mahayana so that it can lead you all to awakening. Fearing that you will be too confused and will not believe that this One Mind is inherent in all of you, he used the Lankavatara Sutra to seal the sentient beings’ mind-ground. Therefore, in the Lankavatara Sutra, mind is the essence of all the Buddha’s teachings, no gate is the Dharma-gate.

“Those who seek the Dharma should not seek for anything. Outside of mind there is no other Buddha, outside of Buddha there is no other mind. Not attaching to good and not rejecting evil without reliance on either purity or defilement, one realizes that the nature of offence is empty: it cannot be found in each thought because it is without self-nature. Therefore, the three realms are mind-only and ‘all phenomena in the universe are marked by a single Dharma.’ Whenever we see form, it is just seeing the mind. The mind does not exist by itself; its existence is due to form.

"Whatever you are saying, it is just a phenomenon which is identical with the principle. They are all without obstruction and the fruit of the way to ‘bodhi’ is also like that. Whatever arises in the mind is called form; when one knows all forms to be empty, then birth is identical with no-birth. If one realizes this mind, then one can always wear one’s robes and eat one’s food. Nourishing the womb of sagehood, one spontaneously passes one’s times: what else is there to do? Having received my teaching, listen to my verse:

The mind-ground is always spoken of,

Bodhi is also just peace.

When phenonoma and the principle

Are all without obstruction,

The very birth is identical with no birth.

A monk asked, “What is the cultivation of the Way?”

The Patriarch replied, “The Way does not belong to cultivation. If one speaks of any attainment through cultivation, whatever is accomplished in that way is still subject to regress.”

The monk also asked, “What kind of understanding should one have in order to comprehend the Way?”

The Patriarch replied, “The self-nature is originally complete. If one only does not get hindered by either good or evil things, then that is a person who cultivates the Way. Grasping good and rejecting evil, contemplating sunyata and entering Samadhi-all of these belong to activity. If one seeks outside, one goes away from it. Just put an end to all mental conceptions in the three realms. If there is not a single thought, then one eliminates the root of birth and death and obtains the unexcelled treasury of the Dharma king.

“Since limitless kalpas, all worldly false thinking, such as flattery, dishonesty, self-esteem, and arrogance have formed one body. That is why the sutra says, ‘It is only through the grouping of many dharmas that this body is formed. When it arises, it is only dharmas arising; when it ceases, it is only dharmas ceasing. When the dharmas arise, they do not say I arise; when they cease, they do not say, I cease.’

“The previous thought, the following thought, and the present thought, each thought does not wait for the others; each thought is calm and extinct. This is called Ocean Seal Samadhi. It contains all dharmas. Like hundreds and thousands of different streams-when they return to the great ocean, they are all called water of the ocean. The water of the ocean has one taste which contains all tastes. In the great ocean all streams are mixed together; when one bathes in the ocean, he uses all waters.

“Some are awakened, and yet still ignorant; the ordinary people are ignorant about awakening. Many do not know that originally the Holy Mind is without any position, without cause and effect, without stages, mental conceptions, and false thought. By cultivating causes they attain the fruits and dwell in the Samadhi of emptiness from twenty to eighty thousand kalpas. Though already awakened, their awakening is the same as ignorance. All Bodhisattvas view this as suffering of the hells: falling into emptiness, abiding in extinction, unable to see the Buddha-nature.

“There might be someone of superior capacity who meets a virtuous friend and receives instructions from him. If upon hearing the words he gains understanding, then without passing through the stages, suddenly he is awakened to the original nature.

“It is in contrast to ignorance that one speaks of awakening. Since originally there is no ignorance, awakening also need not be established. All living beings have since limitless kalpas ago been abiding in the Samadhi of the Dharma-nature. While in the Samadhi of the Dharma-nature, they wear their clothes, eat their food, talk and respond to things. Making use of the six senses, all activity is the Dharma-nature. It is because of not knowing how to return to the source, that they follow names and seek forms, from which confusing emotions and falsehood arise, thereby creating various kinds of karma. When within a single thought one reflects and illuminates within, then everything is the Holy Mind.

“All of you should penetrate your own minds; do not record my words. Even if principles as numerous as the sands of the Ganges are spoken of, the mind does not increase. And if nothing is said, the mind does not decrease. When there is speech, it is just your own mind. Even if one could produce various transformation bodies, emit rays of light and manifest the eighteen transmutations, that is still not like becoming like dead ashes.

“If one is to speak about all expedient teachings of the tripitaka that the Tathagata has expounded, even after innumerable kalpas one still will not be able to finish them all. It is like an endless chain. But if one can awaken to the Holy Mind, then there is nothing else to do. You have been standing long enough. Take care!”

Ma-tsu (709-788)

From Sun-Face Buddha: The Teachings of Ma-Tsu and the Hung-Chou School of Ch'an-translated by Cheng Chien Bhikshu