Sunday, 3 January 2010

New Beginnings

It's been a while since I posted but I'm still here.
After the glimpse of my true nature and the subsequent return to separation I realise I had become intensely depressed. I was desperate to get back the feeling of being everything I perceived, to the extent of not caring about anything else.
My ego had kicked in again and proclaimed to all who would listen that I was now Enlightened, although I was behaving anything but that.
Then it was like the World said to me "Ok you think your enlightened, take this."
The woman I had partnered and loved for nearly eight years declared her love for another and left. Well I didn't really know what attachment was until that moment, deep, intense suffering followed which I could easily describe as Hell.
My instant reaction was to blame my search for Enlightenment as the catalyst for her leaving me and renounce all spiritual practice, but as the dust settled I realised I was not being true to myself, I knew deep within that this had to happen and in fact I had made it happen for my own spiritual growth.
To avoid the suffering I entered the moment, it was my refuge, in the moment the past and future vanished and with them the suffering.
To be in the moment is like riding a bicycle, the more you do it the easier and more natural it becomes, fears for the future vanish and are replaced by an excitement Now, life is more real without the abstraction of thought processes covering your actual reality and although it is not the state of seeing all things as yourself I had experienced previously, it didn't have to be because life and me were now inseparable!

Through suffering as humans we experience being, I had witnessed this first hand and a question arose in my mind, is this the evolution of mankind, from a consciousness run by mind to a consciousness detached for the most part from mind. A simple leap which engages the flow of life without fighting it, a tree still grows perfectly without using a mind.
What with the credit crunch, wars, disasters, global warming etc etc, is the world causing human suffering for one reason, to wake us from the dream of mind to real life, that of spirit?
The old way seems to be putting up a fight but the harder we're pushed by suffering the more of us awaken to the one true life, then suffering ends, this is not an instant end to suffering more of a gradual shift as we learn to stay focused Now.

Then I thought about 2012 and the end of the long count in the mayan calendar, I had heared it refered to as the end of time! Sounds frightening at first but when in the moment or Now there is no time only Now. Is this gradual shift taking place, gaining momentum over the next three years to a time where there is no time only Now, the jump of human consciousness, will it be like the 100 monkey syndrome ?

Nothing needs to change just our perspective, our level of consciousness but things will change until that is met I feel.

The best thing is that none of this will even concern you when your focused in the moment so save yourself some suffering and loose some thought processes but if you need suffering that's what you'll probably get.

Bless you all


lesbiandaily said...

Glad to have you back! And I have the exact same belief as you my friend!

The thought that awoke me to this idea of suffering to reach enlightment hit me so simply, yet it was powerful.

I was also going through a very adverse time in my life and I happened to be walking to the bus, feeling sorry for myself as usual. As I was walking, rain started to pour from the sky and the thought that changed me "It has to rain in order for the flowers to grow"

This is how life works! It's so natural, yet we as humans are always fighting against it. We all need rain in some form to grow as human beings. Thank you for this great site and keep it up!

101 said...

I live in England and we are having plenty of snow at the moment. I called my father who told me how much he hated the snow and was getting quite irate about it hindering his journeys by car.
My daughter came over who was terribly excited by the snow and the fact that school was closed for a few days due to it.
I have a dog and enjoy taking him for long walks, an old lady lives on my usual route who, when I see her she usually comments on the weather as either good or bad,to her snow is apparently bad as is the rain and cold.
Normal human reactions most would say but you are so right, resisting what is does not change what is, it just causes suffering. Accepting what is does not change what is but suffering does not arise.
Good or bad truly do not exist except in the mind and I can't resist the old Zen proverb "No snowflake ever falls in the wrong place."
May suffering be something we all transcend to find true happiness.

HigherVision said...


That is a beautiful proverb and I agree with you 100%. The meditation practice I do (Vipasana) preaches equanimity towards everything that arises in your life. They say when you don't add a negative or positve just see what is.

By the way.....I have no idea why it says LesbianDaily in my response post.

I initially thought that wasn't me, but just realized it is me and that resulted in my laughing hysterically. HAHAHA as I'm not a lesbian or a female.

Cheers from Canada!

HigherVision said...

Ohh and we're rooting for you! Keep up the great work and I wish you well during your time of growth!

“The period of greatest gain in knowledge and experience is the most difficult period in one’s life."

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars."

101 said...

Thanks Higher Vision, hard to explain but life seems just perfect now, and it's extremely funny most of the time!
Synchronicities Jung would be proud of seem to be happening as a by product. Life really is amazing.

HigherVision said...

I'm happy for ya! Keep sharing with us and thanks for creating this great site!

I actually discovered it only 2 months ago!

I'm curious if you have any video or article on how to deal with negative people from a spiritual perspective?

I have this extremely negative brother and he's violent. I'm trying to learn how to better deal with this situation.


101 said...

People are usually violent and angry because of fear, he is scared of something. Don't meet his violence with more violence, stay present and conscious.
If this violence is directed towards you it could be a lesson for you to learn from. Retreat and do not engage him. You may have to distance yourself from him for a while but try to find out what is causing the violence, what is he scared of?
Found this link on google may help you
All the best

HigherVision said...

thank you sir!

Dennis Igou said...

New beginings, just state new. Oxy moron to me, new, begin, examente. Search re-search. Love your blog, recently bought 5th printing of Jung's Red Book. What a huge assignment for my Gnosis. Where do like minds start to communicate telepath like? I think it is full of potential. Write all your dreams, syncro's will manifest!

101 said...

Of course Dennis everything is new,created and destroyed in every moment.
My dreams guide me through the world of the manifested and are closely regarded.
Bless you

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It really does thank you.

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